i need your mouth on my thighs and my hips like you’re hungry, like you’re starving. i am nothing. i am nothing. there is sewage in my veins. i need your weight to crush my sternum. i don’t want to feel. i don’t want to feel. this isn’t a game anymore. i am an addict and you are my drug. hit me. i want to feel. i don’t want to feel. take all of me and leave nothing left, only dust to be scattered by wind. i want all of you inside me because i am empty. do you hear me? i am a bird without wings. i have no happy endings. life is cruel. life is cruel. kiss my neck, rip my flesh. this is love. this is love. -H.P.